It’s been a good semester for me so far, but a wearying one. Tonight, I am exhausted physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
The two things that wear me out most are having courage and being responsible. I don’t know what to do about the weariness of facing fear, but when the weight of responsibility begins to get really heavy, I find the following verses refreshing:
At that time the disciples came to Jesus and said, “Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”
And He called a child to Himself and set him before them, and said, “Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever then humbles himself as this child, he is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”
Matthew 18:1-4 (NASB)
O LORD, my heart is not proud, nor my eyes haughty;
Nor do I involve myself in great matters,
Or in things too difficult for me.
Surely I have composed and quieted my soul;
Like a weaned child rests against his mother,
My soul is like a weaned child within me.
O Israel, hope in the LORD
From this time forth and forever. Psalm 131 (NASB)
It’s hard having to be grown-up all the time. It’s nice to know that we are always just children to God. Probably one reason seeing ourselves as children is helpful is that it punctures our self-importance. Taking ourselves too seriously is one of the heaviest burdens of all.